Let’s face it. I think too much. I read even more than I think. I think even more when I read, and the cycle continues non-stop. At the end of the day, my exhausted mind must hold strong for my body to perform its tasks at hand – at any one time them being brutal on the body, mind and spirit. Don’t get me wrong, I enjoy climbing mountains, and I do it each day; but if you’ve ever climbed Everest then you know climbing mountains (though rewarding) is very exhausting. Have you ever run up a hill before? How was your breathing once you reached the top? That’s how I feel every minute because the top is why I want to be, but the hills are plentiful. The trick is doing it without ever losing enjoyment or the sight of why you climbed in the first place.
I have my supports I lean on. My beautiful wife is polar opposite of what I do and how I think. At times, it conflicts but in-truth I need her for the balancing she unknowingly provides me for the brief moments I am with her. Brief the moments seem because they never are long enough. No matter how slowly I try to eat dinner so I’m next to her longer, or how slowly I walk behind her at a store so I can watch the way she moves, time eventually catches up and the moment is gone. I love and respect her very much. She doesn’t know how important of a role she plays in my life.
I throw my everything into the music and the creation of it. Being in a serious, committed relationship has had its challenges in regard to dividing my love between it and my wife, but I don’t think I could ever find another woman who was as willing to sacrifice the seconds of time so that I can take those seconds and dedicate them away from her. I am truly grateful for her and all the sacrificing she makes so that I can pursue this dream. It is why I am here at 2AM working at the studio while she sleeps. I will not be content until I see all the sacrifices were worth it.